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Miracles happen to those who believe!

Yesterday we met an amazing family. The wife had last seen me just a few months after my stroke. Yesterday when she saw me, she said “you look like a totally different person!” and later she texted me, “now I believe in miracles more” I couldn’t stop my tears when I read that.



For the past few weeks, my pain has peaked. I was physically hurting so much that I mentally started falling apart. For the first time in my life I actually made a google doc of the pros and cons of my family surviving without me.

I’m clinically diagnosed with depression, so suicidal thoughts are a given. But I’ve always been able to talk myself out of it with an important tool one of my therapists taught me. Saying aloud repeatedly that one thing that persuades me to live rather than die. For me it’s my son. Repeating his name aloud snaps me out of the suicidal bout. These past few weeks were even worse than before. I purposely met friends and hosted parties at my place, so that I could feel some happiness or something at all. I felt numb. After crying my heart out to my mother one day, I woke up the next day and decided I’m not going to give up. I gave myself a new challenge. After my stroke, I haven’t been able to hold my weight on one foot at a time. I always need to stand on two legs and if I’m turning, I need to hold onto something for balance. Now people who know me well know that I was a dancer before my stroke. I was trained in Indian classical and taught myself contemporary, pivots and pointe. So I took up the challenge to get back to pivots and pointe and I also wanted to throw in something new, so I chose shuffling.



I have just started this week and then as a sign from the universe I met this family yesterday who remind me about believing in miracles.

Her text was a subtle reminder that I was just like her when I dealt with my son’s health issues. I believed in miracles when the doctor’s diagnosed him with Cerebral Palsy, I believed in miracles when they said there is a possibility that he wouldn’t talk. I believed in miracles when they said he probably will never walk. Today he is a young man who walks with a crutch and aspires to be a singer.



I never thought once of giving up then, so how can I do it now? Isn’t it actually selfish to think that both my family and I would be better off without me on this Earth!

So, no, I’m not going anywhere. Will be around to annoy you with my writing and amaze myself with my little victories.

Here’s a quote I found when I hit my lowest: “The pain in this life has always made me wish to be dead. But there's no guarantee that I won't carry this pain to the next.”

But I’d like to change it today: “The pain in this life has always made me wish to be dead. But every single time the universe gives me signs that there’s more happiness in store than I’ve already seen!”

To miracles!



 

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kiran.hariharan.it
kiran.hariharan.it
Oct 09, 2021

Reminds me of Invictus. https://youtu.be/SAa6qdBN7Z0 Your spirit is what matters to everyone that loves you.

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❤️❤️❤️😘😘😘 Dearest Megha, you are a living proof that miracles are real!!! And a big reminder to all of us that the strongest people are not given an easier life. They become stronger from the constant battle they keep fighting. You are a fighter! You are put on this earth to be an example through your suffering to inspire others to believe in miracles and go on living with hope of better days. Yes I do believe in miracles a little more now.


love You Sweetheart and am so proud of you for pulling yourself up each day to face the ups and downs each day presents. Remember, you are a big part of your family. You are their sunsh…

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Megha Menon
Megha Menon
Oct 05, 2021
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Thank you so much chechi. Means a lot! You're my inspiration ❤️🤗

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Lekshmy Janardanan
Lekshmy Janardanan
Oct 05, 2021

Love you Megha ..you can do Wonders 😊..Belive in yourself ..we all with you

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Megha Menon
Megha Menon
Oct 05, 2021
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Thank you so much 🤗

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remyaf16
remyaf16
Oct 04, 2021

Good one🙌🏼

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Megha Menon
Megha Menon
Oct 04, 2021
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Thanks da 🤗

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Sindhu Santhosh
Sindhu Santhosh
Oct 04, 2021

To the most powerful girl on Earth.. love you soo much dear😘

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Megha Menon
Megha Menon
Oct 04, 2021
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Chechi 😘

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